My dear girl,
I need...I need you...I need you to know...I need you to know that I also want us to be like we used to be. The only thing that's in my way is my unusual love for him. I know this has to end somehow and I do want this thing to have a closure. But unfortunately I'm still undecided on how to do it. Every time I want to make a decision I'm scared that it won't be the right one. I don't want to regret this later and to remain all my life wandering "what if...". This has to be naturally done. I guess I'm still waiting for a sign from him telling me it is all right to leave this sick situation. Don't be worried for me, please, cause I'm learning to be ready for anything. I'm learning not to be surprised if this ends in a different way than I wish. I know life is not fair. Neither is love. So I think I'm getting a little bit stronger every day. Thank you for being there for me though! I really need my best friend to understand me and you are the only one that can. I know you are the only one who knows me best and I'm sorry I didn't listen to you, but I think sometimes I have to learn from my own mistakes. I just really hope this is not one yet.
Love,
Your best friend forever, Heart
